my place

My place, which I visit at least once a week if not more, immediately makes me feel better when I am there. I feel a sense of belonging, friendship with others who are there, happiness. Being greeted by everyone is still something I am not used to and remembering everyone's names is a challenge for me, but a welcome one. Being able to watch my little girl run around the daycare without her being able to see me brings much joy to my morning as my wife and I go to hear the word of Christ and praise him for this glorious day. The building still feels new, as it is just over a decade old, but definitely does not have that old church cathedral feel to it. That clean new smell too at times. The loud whispers of the congregation talking and catching up before having to be wherever there calling is that morning, and kids running around being kids before going to Sunday school or preschool. The contrast of the brightly lit hallways and classrooms to the more warmly lit worship hall, and the beautiful singing of the choir and worship leaders bring us towards a higher calling. When I first started going to didn’t like to sing out loud but it is something I have come to embrace and feel happy about, being able to sing and praise the lord with my fellow church members.

I feel my mortality and tend to dwell on it though when I am here, and I don't know if others feel the same or not. I am relatively new to this more than most people I have met here, and feel lost at times since most of my new friends are Seminary Students working towards either master’s degrees or PhD’s. I try to keep up and study the word on my own time, but know the feeling of having a long way to go. I do feel happy being able to sit and learn with my wife at the same time, going through anything is easier when you don’t have to do it alone. That has been the hard part about college for me, since almost none of my friends have went to college since we graduated high school. I feel at times that I am going through many experiences alone, while I know that is not exactly true.